
Until the Death of Me
A 15-Year Eating Disorder Recovery Journey
Healing is rarely linear. This memoir is an honest reflection on recovery — not as a single turning point, but as a long and deeply human process of learning to return to oneself.

Publication details
Publisher: Independently published
Publication date: November 2021
Format: Paperback
ISBN: 9798761071858
Language: English
Until the Death of Me is Saori Okada’s debut memoir, documenting her lived experience of navigating eating disorder recovery over a fifteen-year period.
Written with honesty and restraint, the book explores the emotional and psychological realities of long-term healing — moving beyond simplified narratives and quick resolutions. It reflects on self-worth, identity, and the slow rebuilding of trust with the body and the self.
While the subject matter is deeply personal, the message is ultimately one of quiet hope: that recovery is possible, even when it unfolds gradually, imperfectly, and over time.
This work laid the foundations for Saori’s later approach to wellbeing — where compassion, presence, and sustainable self-care remain central.
Themes explored
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Recovery and healing over time
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Self-trust, self-worth, and identity
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Compassion and emotional resilience
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Learning to return to the body gently